Monday, May 9
heh. this day started horribly, and is ending horribly. except for about 10 minutes of euphoria around 5 when the english department guy called to tell me i got into cap. which is pretty exciting because my poetry is crap. -shrugs- right now all i feel is a bit of nervousness because i don't know anyone except this a13 girl from ya. but she'll have her classmate with her, whereas i won't. and then the two science people will go together and i really will have no one. am i being overly paranoid as usual? but i can't seem to stop myself from imagining the worst scenarios. i bet i'll be all lonely and pathetic and everyone will hate me and wonder how i got into the programme. :( and i bet i don't look poetic enough. :(
history test tmr. don't feel like studying. haven't started preparing for math, and i know nuts about inequalities and sequences and series. hip hip hooray.
found a recording on my phone. of us, at chris's house in jan before she left. when i held the phone to my ear, i almost started crying. i haven't heard our voices all together in so long. jean. jan. gen. chris. bev. all together. merging as one. will it ever happen again? i play it over and over again and wish i had thought to record our crazy conversations earlier.
it must've been love.
10:01 pm
xoxo
